Well half of my clothes are now all packed and ready to go. I don't leave the city for a week, but I am changing locations for a week, then I am leaving, so everything needs to be packed for the trip, now. I have also decided to send half my clothes home to stay. In March, there will be a car driving to my home, and I am working on boxes to pack to have shipped back. I am trying to relocate at least 50-75% of my belongings back to the old country! That way the mass exodus (yes, my very own mass exodus) out of this city will be less of a challenge - whenever that may take place. May/June 2014 is the very latest ... but honestly, the way things are it might be sooner, who knows.
Talking with people today ... was it today ... or yesterday ... ? Talking with people today, I realized that there are a lot of people who are feeling the same way as I am ... apparently others are having daily thoughts about quitting, transferring, or changing programs of study entirely, just as I am. ...I really need to push my writing!
You know ... most the time I am glad that I never knew what was coming, because it would have changed my decision, and I wouldn't have experienced any of the good that came with the not-so-good stuff. But honestly, there's really not much good in all of this. This in one very rare time, that I wish I did know then, what I know now, because I wouldn't have touched this path with a 10-foot pole.
One step at a time! That's all I have keeping me here at the moment. If I think into the future in any way, it's too much to cope with, and considering even some of my professors and clinicians are treating me like a flight risk at the moment, I don't allow myself to think past what I need to get through in the present day (but that is another story).
