Here We Go Again!

And Here we go again. I forgot how much I missed travelling by the seat of my pants! My flight isn't until tomorrow night, but I made some calls and booked a flight with just enough time to get to the gate from my place. Really thinking now. I just need to "gypsy" again. This stable, scheduled existence was never my thing. :)

Miss the Stars

Darkness in the city. (After 1:30am) ... Miss home. Miss the stars.

All Packed!

Well half of my clothes are now all packed and ready to go. I don't leave the city for a week, but I am changing locations for a week, then I am leaving, so everything needs to be packed for the trip, now. I have also decided to send half my clothes home to stay. In March, there will be a car driving to my home, and I am working on boxes to pack to have shipped back. I am trying to relocate at least 50-75% of my belongings back to the old country! That way the mass exodus (yes, my very own mass exodus) out of this city will be less of a challenge - whenever that may take place. May/June 2014 is the very latest ... but honestly, the way things are it might be sooner, who knows.

Talking with people today ... was it today ... or yesterday ... ? Talking with people today, I realized that there are a lot of people who are feeling the same way as I am ... apparently others are having daily thoughts about quitting, transferring, or changing programs of study entirely, just as I am.  ...I really need to push my writing!

You know ... most the time I am glad that I never knew what was coming, because it would have changed my decision, and I wouldn't have experienced any of the good that came with the not-so-good stuff. But honestly, there's really not much good in all of this. This in one very rare time, that I wish I did know then, what I know now, because I wouldn't have touched this path with a 10-foot pole.

One step at a time! That's all I have keeping me here at the moment. If I think into the future in any way, it's too much to cope with, and considering even some of my professors and clinicians are treating me like a flight risk at the moment, I don't allow myself to think past what I need to get through in the present day (but that is another story).

Eff This!

OMG!!!! I am so frigging sick of all this crap!!!! To be honest, I really wanted to work with people and help them, but this school has made me no longer care! I don't care about taking care of people any more. I even hate the idea of being a dental hygienist. This feels like the worst profession ever. Good thing I still have my writing! I think I'm really going to focus on that this summer, and start submitting some to see about publishing. That is my goal. Dental Hygiene is my prison until I can escape.

P R O C R A S T I N A T I O N

So, I am supposed to be doing so many other thing right now and only have 1.5 hours till I need to go to sleep, to get up super early tomorrow, and I'm having so much trouble focussing. I have been perusing random randomness on the internet. There are so many things that I just do not need to know!

Tomorrow we are back to our Wednesday Night suppers. Looking forwards to games and hanging out.

OH OH OH!!! There is like grass EVERYWHERE! Walking home this afternoon I kept seeing spots of grass everywhere. I got so excited! I know more snow will most likely fall again before spring arrives, but it was just nice to see it.

Okay, back to doing the thing I haven't been doing!