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Rainbows

I'm sitting here at my desk, thinking about how overwhelmed I am and wondering just how and if I am going to be able to get through this, when I look up and see this lovely
rainbow. It lasted for only a few minutes, but it was enough to brighten my day and give me that extra energy to keep working tonight and feel good about tomorrow.

So Yay to the rainbow, who briefly appeared to let me know, "it's gonna be okay."

Tonight I said F**k it!

Tonight I said F**k it! I decided to ignore the stress, forget about all the tears shed these past two weeks, not think about anything past this moment and just F**k it. I went out and competed with 3 other schools in a school spirit/cheering/shopping/dancing contest. I have no idea who won – the last I knew we were tied and needed one more win for the win. Who knows ... I’m far too exhausted to find out tonight.  I wasn't going to go. I was hunkered down with a pile of textbooks and fighting not to fall into a much needed sleep. This flu/cold (whatever the hell it is I have) wasn't helping the staying awake part. Then they came. They pounded on my door. They told me to put on my school shirt and to come! I stared at them for about 10 seconds, while they looked on in silence, then I said, “F**k it.” As overly exhausted as I was, I went and pushed out every ounce of energy I didn't have.

Just when I thought I was going to drop and not be able to move another inch tonight ... I started to dance. That’s right. I said dance. YEAH BUDDY! I danced in the frickin’ rain tonight. For hours! With green paint on my face! And for one moment in these past 13 days of constant torment, I forgot about the crap. And it doesn’t matter I did no work tonight. Come tomorrow it might matter, but for tonight it doesn’t. I’m going to go to bed not feeling overwhelmed and teary eyed and I’m going to wake up and face tomorrow ... just tomorrow. Not the rest of the week, not the rest of the month, not the rest or this term, and certainly not the rest of these next three years – just, tomorrow.

A little Late

I'm a little late in sharing these, but here at the very first mojitos I made from my own little garden I posted way back in May.

Are you F-ing Kidding me!?

There aren't many words for this day....

Are you F-ing Kidding me!?

Ugh!

SERIOUSLY!? 

OMFG! 

So I decided to make breakfast ... BURNT THE F-ING TOAST! Scrapped burnt off toast over the sink and lost hold of my toast and WHIPPED it into a dirty water-filled frying pan.

Finally something finished! (No, that is not the same piece of BLOATED soggy toast.

Happy Days

Today is a much better day.

I'm feeling decent this morning.

I think I'll spend the day shopping.

I need to pick up some things for the fall, so I may just go bus jumping around the city and make a day of it.

Toronto was fun, but I'm glad to be back here. It's been ~15 years since I was there last and while I remembered that I wasn't fond of Toronto, I didn't remember just how strong that feeling was. I mean it's great. Lots of places to go and all that stuff .. and if you like living there GREAT. But it's not my cup of tea. I like the smaller big cities and after a few years I may return to the country. But I don't mind calling the city home for a few years. : )

I'm almost 1/2 done my shawl. I'm really liking it. It's so pretty. I'm excited I'll have it for the beach in August. I've also been exercising with the boys. Summer is going well. All my papers and fees are good for the fall. Maybe .. just maybe I can have a few weeks with no stress. That would be FABULOUS!

I'm trying to keep the negative out, but I'm still struggling somewhat. So I'm gonna treat myself while out shopping today. I think I will get an overly fancy coffee and maybe some pretty new dishes for my place for the fall. Yup ... I think I'll finished getting ready and head out. It's such a beautiful sunny day! : )

Nocturnal Days

Being nocturnal has its consequences-it can get rather lonely. I guess that really is my only complaint (mind you I love being alone-lonely and alone are two very different things). Nighttime has a different energy which doesn't compare to the day. I'm always more awake, tend to get more accomplished and mentally/creatively I am more alert and capable. My internal clock is askew just like my moon. I love this picture btw, with the moon distorted.

But seeing as how I live on planet Earth with people, and people tend to do most their living during the day, I am usually finding myself having to adjust. This is going to be the first time in a long time I'm going to have to adjust seriously; seeing as how I'm being graded. Well, I'm being graded on what I will be learning, but that all depends on how successful my flip is this time round. So really, I'm being graded on my ability to be a daywalker. *sigh* But this will be a good thing. Right? RIGHT? I have a summer to make it a good thing. So, it shall be a good thing.

Now, it's shy of 2am and instead of starting trying to sleep at night, I'm going to make a tea and read or watch a movie. Been taking care of a rather sick mom and haven't had any time to myself these last few days.

Mojitos Mean Summer

      Well boys and girls Summer is a coming! And how do I know this? Why mint of course! I have just planted my little summer garden. This is my kick off to summer. I declare it here!

My attempt at tomato plants was a spectacular FAIL last year. So while I was perusing through the massive amounts of trees/flowers/shrubs/vegetables, wondering just what I could attempt this year, I was pulled towards the tables of herbs ... more specifically the minty ones. 

        I decided that I would now grow my minty ingredients for summer mojitos. I got me 3 spearmint and 3 peppermint (as they were on sale 3 for $10). BUT! Low and behold just as I was about to walk away .. I see them .. the chocolate mint plants. And-so-I-had-to-get-them!! I put back one of each of the others and got two chocolate mint ones. I may try a chocolate mint mojito ... but I dunno about that. I was thinking those ones would be more for my morning tea. Yay for mint mint mint mint mint!

Heeeey Yoooou ....

Weeeeeelllllllllllllll … it’s been a long time. Hello Blog.

Wow … I thought I had something to say, but now I’m like duuuuuuuh.

I feel uncomfortable and stressed out, as though I have just walked back into a crowded room of people I haven’t seen in ages. Yet it’s only you here, Blog.

So … how have you been? Weather been good? I think I have finally escaped from the forestry after 15 years of trying. I am moving to Ottawa soon. Am I packed? BAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA!

Oh my! That was a good one!

I’m trying not to think of everything all at once. STRESS!

I am focussing on one thing at a time. Baby steps.

So far I have cleaned up a lot of my FB and I have half prepared for HPKCHC.

My dance show is in a month. AHHH! I just realized that.

Okay I am sure I’ll have more to talk about next time.

One more thing.

THE CACTI ARE COMING! THE CACTI ARE COMING!

Day BAH! Lost Count - Not counting anymore!

Yeah .. just done with that. Blog should be for NON boring things!

Day 3

Today wasn't bad. It was even better by the fact that tomorrow is Friday. WOO!


Breakfast: 2 boiled eggs, 1 whole wheat toast, Almond milk.
Snack: ummm noooooo idea anymore ... '~'
Lunch: Beans, 1 boiled egg.
Snack: 8 almonds, red  pepper & celery sticks.
Supper: Tandoori skinless chicken breast, mashed potato, 3 baby dill pickles. (One dollop of sour cream because the chicken was too hot for me to be able to eat.)
Drinks: 2 bottles water, 4.5 cups green tea.


I managed to get some exercise in tonight. 20 minutes of half walking/half running in snowshoes. 
My biggest problem is I haven't been able to get much sleep this week. But tomorrow is Friday and hopefully I'll get to sleep early Friday and sleep in Saturday and get caught up so I can do my 45 minutes of exercise.

Day 2

Today was a better day. Yesterday was a retarded Monday. Wanna know how retarded? It was  actually Tuesday. Stupid retarded Mondays!


Breakfast: Three hardboiled eggs. Almond milk.

Snack: Five dark chocolate covered almonds.

Lunch: Small bowl of whole wheat bow-tie pasta with extra tomato sauce.

Supper: Beans. Smoothie - blueberries, raspberries, yogurt, almond milk

Drinks:  1/2 bottle water. 7 cups green tea.

Managed to get some studying in at noon. Drove home in beautiful sunshine. Trying to decide if I wanna snowshoe before I study or not. First exam next week.

Day 1

Not a good day! 
Breakfast: Pumpkin Pie, Bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios (no milk) - No comments! BAD MORNING! BAH!
Snack: Three chocolate covered almonds.
Lunch: Small bowl of whole wheat bow-tie pasta with extra tomato sauce, red & green pepper sticks.
Supper: Extra lean hamburger (ketchup, mustard, mayo, onions, lettuce), on white bun - NO COMMENTS!
Drinks: 1 bottle water, 7 cups green tea.
I'm only talking about the food and not the rest. Stupid day! 
Not Cool!