Forced by a Wizard! ... to organize BAH!

“One will find great difficulties in moving on with one's life, if all she leaves behind her is a mountain of clutter,” the wise old wizard warned.

“The clutter isn’t that bad,” I defended myself, knowing it was a full out lie.

He raised an eyebrow in response; he knew that I knew he knew.

“Okay, so maybe I have my fair share of clutter,” I admitted. “But who doesn’t?”

“That be dreadfully true,” he nodded majestically, as only a knowledgeable wizard could.

“So I’ll leave it and move on to start anew,” my tone was more arrogant than it should have been.

The lanky wizard slammed his tall staff down in between us – missing my toes by a mere inch – with such force his cloak flailed in the gust of wind that was blown in my direction.

“You are inviting your own doom! As well as my own,” he struggled to regain his calm demeanour. “When one leaves clutter behind them to stew and fester it does nothing but follow you, waiting for a chance to rematerialize and seep into everything you do, wherever you go … whoever you touch.”

I calmly fixed the mess the wind had made of my hair. “So, you think I should clean up my clutter before I leave this place? Seems like more work that it is worth, especially when I don’t plan to return here.”

“No I do not think,” he was much more serious than I wanted to deal with at the moment. “I am ordering you to clean up your mess before you take one more step in your journey. Be you fleeing or exploring, your past messes will prevent you from ever being anywhere new.”

I opened my mouth to speak, but he silenced me with a violent wave of his hand.

“No matter the distance you put between you and it!” he turned to head to the pub to wait for me, no doubt. “I refuse to let you poison our journey.” He then left the house.

I watched him head for the town center and sighed – it was going to be a long night!

And so that is why I am cleaning and organizing my room/apartment. Because a mean, old, cranky wizard has ordered me to ... NOT because I want to! So I will put on some music, or maybe a book on tape and attack the mountain that has been building. Wish me luck, I will not re-emerge until all has been finished.

Procrastination

So one think I have learned from the month of November: is that I am still a master procrastinator! For a while there I was worried because I thought I have forgotten how to do it ... turns out I remembered all along.

Today looks like Christmas outside and it's all toasty warm inside. I am sitting here sipping on my tea and trying to put order in my life ... I know ... many doubt it will happen. I have been living in chaos for many many years now and most people who truly know me expect me to always stay that way. I don't think I will ever be truly organized ... but a little bit is coming ... I think this is going to be a good thing.

My goals for this month: Finish "Three in the Morning" and submit it for my publishing prize; create mood playlists; complete 1-2 traveling S's; and be ready for Christmas (which consists of Dec 10, 11, 12, 13, 16, 24, 25, 26 & 31. Mind you Dec 12 is anti-Christmas).

Mind you within all that I have taken my November procrastination and upped it big time!

Coffee and Snow ... oh wait ... it's rain

So the other day we had our very first snow fall .. HUGE GIANT FLAKES! I had been up all night (for two nights) with NaNo and was 1000 words from finishing when I looked up out the window and saw these massively huge flakes. It was so magical, but it never stayed on the ground .. too warm. Now all we get is rain rain rain. But that is okay, I have not bought winter boots yet.

Apart from that ... oh the Christmas tree is up, the lights hung around the apartment and the windows and I am slowly coming off my must-have-coffee-now-or-kill-everyone addiction that I put myself into during the month or November for Nano.

Okay well I am off to finish my NaNo story so that it doesn't bleed to death while I leave it hanging for years. Because next year's NaNo I want to start a brand new story.

AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!

AAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!

SO I HAVE DONE IT! THAT'S RIGHT! I now control the universe and all that are in it! Well okay that is a lie .. I am only almost there.

After being wonderfully ill for several weeks, I pulled myself to my laptop and ignored the world for a little under 14 days to finish NaNoWriMo .. at the halfway point I only had 1504 words of the 50,000.

This morning at 7am, with no sleep for the past few nights I dragged myself across the finish line, precious cup of coffee in tow (it's white chocolate coffee .. can't abandon that!) and 224 words over the required 50,000 for midnight tonight. Is my story done? Almost. I didn't want to end it for the sake of ending it because I hit the word goal. I would feel like I wasted my time if I did that. So a proper ending will come within the next few days.

What now? WELL I still have to pass in my knitting homework for all my classes at HPKCHC. I am aiming for two classes by the end of today (deadline for that is also tonight, thus the need for the days of no sleep.)

Despite the stress and feelings of "Omg! I will never get this done!" And "I still have my six knitting classes I haven't started yet ahhhhhhhh!" I actually had a whole lot of fun doing this! It's a story that doesn't have to be good. It can go anywhere you want and you don't have to worry about it. You just go with it. You write for the sake of writing and not to impress anyone else. I like my story. I am happy with it and I am SO glad I did this.

I seriously recommend next year's NaNoWriMo to you all. It was a fabulous month! If you aren't into novels there is a script(stage and screen)/tv show/graphic novel event in April. Check it out. It's called Script Frenzy.

Knitting and Writing

Well due to illness this month (which is ALMOST out of my system .. I thank all who lit candles for me and others in the house who needed it) I am severely behind in pretty much everything. I have two projects on the go (Herbology and Charms) But neither are half done. I am also and WAY behind in NaNo. I wrote all night, until 8:30am this morning and managed to push my 1500 words up to 10,000 exactly. It was pretty cool to end on that number and be done the chapter.

I am hoping to get another 5000 this evening. If I can get 5000 a day for the next few days I can catch up. I SHOULD have 25,000 today. So 15,000 will only put me 10,000 behind ... so slowly I am catching up. THEN I can spend some serious time getting caught up in my classes. I would love to get at least three done this term.

Okay I am just using this to procrastinate! Back to NaNo! ;p

NaNoWriMo

Wow I am really sucking at blogging lately. I also have two old blogs I need to tie into this one. But that is on the long term list of things not soon got to.

What's new? Well knitting for one! Just started actually making real things a couple months ago and though sometimes it can get tedious and very frustrating, I like it.

I am in my new city ... no job ... no real address ... but I am here. This month I am working on (and am really behind due to illness that is now only a sexy cough ... not as sexy as it was ... but still sexy!) NaNoWriMo. So over the next three weeks I have to write 50 000 words ... minus the 1800 I have done so far ... yea a little behind!

Also I have my knitting classes to keep up with. That's right I am now attending Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry for knitting. I don't want to let my house down (every month you knit for classes and earn points for your house to try and win the house cup at the end of term). And scarves, which seem to have slowed this month (doing a traveling scarf - group of ppl knit a 5 inch piece of scarf and mail it to the next person in the list and that person adds a piece ... by the time the scarf pieces have gone around the circle everyone gets a scarf knit by different ppl in different countries. It's kinda cool ... and very stressful being a beginner with all these people who knit so well! I have frogged every scarf I have worked on so far many many times! But once I get my sections finished I am happy with them).

And that is all for now. Typos be damned I don't have the patience to reread today!

THE NEXT ADVENTURE!!

I am happy to announce that I declare my 12 year imprisonment within the wet, stone walls of the forestry will soon come to an end ... FINALLY!

Yes ... it is that time again. Time to pack my handy traveling bag and wait for 'them' to speak to me and say, "It's time to go." It has to be an unplanned moment, a spontaneous decision. Why? Maybe because I scare easily (which is kinda funny if you consider some of the things I have faced and survived). Or maybe it's just the trill of the unknown being thrown at you from all directions. Who knows ... what I do know is I have to go ... and soon. The last of my humanity (wait was there any left?) is being murdered the longer I stay here. And whatever is left of my soul is being sucked dry. So talking with S at work, I have come to the conclusion that 'it is time to go'. S pointed out a very interesting thing to me. I have been putting my life on hold for others; whenever anyone calls, I run to them. But S pointed out, "You don't always have to catch the ball." So I got thinking ... what if I already caught the ball and have been clutching it tightly for a while? ... is it still okay to blatantly turn my hand over, release my fingers and let it fall?

YES! A resounding yes screamed at me. So I am dropping the ball. WOO!

Have I told work? No. But I don't know myself when I am leaving. And for now they are not to know. But this time will be different then the others. Well, every time is always different ... but then again always the same. The thing is, I pack a bag, jump on a plane, boat, or bus and go. The length, city, country, continent varies, but in the end I always come back. So this time I am doing something I have forbade myself to do .... I am making a plan. But an open plan.

My plan is thus: I will not return.

I don't mean I won't ever visit, cause I will. But for all intent and purposes I am leaving to find a home this time. I am leaving the home I have (well don't really have one, but I will call it my home), and putting it behind me to look for something that I have not found yet. Does this mean G is settling down? HELL NO! But I will be finding a new place that I will always be returning to from now on.

The hardest part (as much as I love my gypsy-ing ways) will be to not return to this place. The Hellmouth was opened beneath me here, and it always calls me back. No matter how hard I fight it, it pulls me back. So I know I have a huge battle before me, but I am determined to win. And just maybe, once I separate myself from this newly-turned hell dimension, I will be able to return at least a part of my humanity back to the surface. OH! Don't worry for those who love me as I am ... I promise to stay evil! Otherwise all that good upbringing my Papa Bug gave to me would be worth nothing ... after all he helped me to be the evil I was meant to. Thanks Papa Bug!

So for now, stay turned. You will learn what is to come when I do. Let's hear it for walking blindly into the night. I'd go in the day, but the sun tends to hurt my demon eyes. (D&A know what I speak of lol.)

Killing again

I killed again today. It might not have been the biggest thing I battled, but damn it was one of the ugliest! It was AWFUL! It was big, don’t get me wrong. It had eight legs, black with white markings and pincers that reached out into infinity! ..... Now all I can see of it is its twisted legs reaching out from under what I crushed it with. It wasn’t an easy kill. I had major chills for quite a while afterward.

Less violent areas of my life … well … I am half way done making my Amazon Fighting Stick for my Defense Against the Dark Arts class. I think I will get a really good grade/points for this project. It had already taken me about 16 hours of blood, sweat and tears … okay no sweat or tears … but that doesn’t make it any less hard. And let me tell you PAINFUL! It is killing my fingers. I am also needed to stock up on more items … band-aids to be specific.

Today I have decided to skip all classes and just goof-off. WOO!

What else did I do over the long weekend? Other than mastering the usage of large double pointed needles (four at a time thank you very much) not much else – that includes sleep (it's only 38 this time ... so far). I actually don’t do that anymore(sleep much) … why? Well as my dad says, “So you have finally stopped trying to hide the fact that you are not human.” .... I had no argument for him.

And yes if you are wondering, I still have to avert my demon eyes to the bright sunshine … something my father also noticed many many years ago.

Knitting

Okay so I am now all signed up for classes and for two of them I have to make a 5 foot Amazon Fighting Staff and a Magic Seeing Mirror. For this I have to use two techniques that I have never done before. Dpns ... dangerous tools with sharp points, and a blocking spell. I am off to the Alley to buy my supplies. I will posts pictures as I go ... if they aren't too disastrous.

Handles

So I have been spending a good deal of my energy trying to come up with an online name. For years I used Usako-san (Japanese) and then I went to Beyby and sometimes BeybyGyrl – which I spent more time with the two. I was thinking instead of coming up with something new maybe I should just fall back onto what I already had. But then I thought if I am doing that why not go back to my first handle: O’Henry – wow that was when my chatroom was just a black screen with different colored fonts … wait did they even have different colors? And then I mainly only talked to the people I already talked with at school anyways. But wait … there aren’t all good memories associated with that handle … so lets move on a bit further … that would take me to university – and Gak comes into the picture (Gak brings forth no bad memories either). This was created in a small first floor computer lab in Head Hall with very slow computers, by a mistake (and we all know the story to my life is mistakes, some bad, more good, gotta love the mistakes – I have learned to embrace them). So that is it. I may go back to Gak. Any thoughts?

Pictures

This will eventually have pictures

Who Says You Can't Go Home

So here I am back at blogger. I like Sampa, but they are closing. My only qualm is that now people don't need to sign in ... unless blogger has changed (I will look into it), but please please please I beg of you do not post things and sign it anonymous. I really HATE that! Thanks ^_^